singing from the wilderness

i'm working on a new song. I got inspired this week to finish some stuff I've been working on for awhile.
i stayed late at work tonight. there's no shortage of things to do work (and just in life in general). I'm struggling to keep up with it all.
A couple of times today i started to feel overwhelmed and wanted so badly to freak out, or get upset, or cry, or yell, or etc...but lately when that's been happening there's been a supernatural grace just to sing or pray soft enough so that other people don't nescessarily hear, but loud enough that my spirit hears and pays attention.
there's been lots to freak out about. I wonder what God is really doing in my life? Sometimes I wonder why it is that I'm really back here. I know it's not to ship chocolate all over the world, but that's what I spend most of my time doing.
I wonder where it's all leading, what it all means.
Maybe I'm just learning how to live life in the midst of wilderness and REALLY learn how to sing from that place. It is sorta fitting.

okay bye.