some tweaking

Lately I have been on the big bad journey of tweaking my beliefs about my idenity. Or shall I say God is tweaking how I see myself. I have to say honestly that I have always struggled with some major insecurities. You know... worrying too often about what others think and say about me...and letting that become a reality I act upon.
So as I have not asked for this journey - but have graciously accepted God's inner workings of my heart - I have had some highs and lows. Two weeks ago there were some great lows, and lately I must say I am having some sweet highs. I have been doing things in the past several weeks that I never thought I could do well. I have this little voice in my head (really I should say the Lord's voice) that is saying if I could only grasp how much the Lord delights in me that I could kick a few butts and take some names (if I may echo Adam Mc's sermon last night). When i say "kick a few butts" I mean a life lived with a zeal and joy that fuels the place of prayer and growing deeper in God.
Maybe this makes no sense to anyone but me...but I know what I mean. Maybe one day I'll re-read this blog and think back to this season with a smile on my face - knowing it was hard but that I grew and waited on God. And that's what counts.
That and I like myself because God does.
the end.