the nows and not yets

As I write I am sitting here in KCI waiting for my flight to board.
Last night my friend Arin and I went to the Sigur Ros concert here in kansas city. A little preview of Iceland. :) I wasn't sure what to expect, I know their music but it's so different... but the concert blew any notions away. that falsetto voice, the bowed guitar, the drums, the string quartette and all the brass...and we had good seats. great. great. grand. I think at one point I cried (in a good way). I would post some pictures but i didn't bring my camera plug in. boo. that means no pictures until i come back.
Today Arin and I went to ihop-kc. That too was great. He got some prayer and i just sat in my chair and listened to a Misty devotional and meditated on some Proverbs. I got some where with it, maybe abstract at the moment and more questions...but more on that later.
My stomach is turning, i'm not sure reasoning. the only thing i can come up with is my head is in a lot of different places. the past two days underneath the surface i can feel waves of emotions and desires, agendas, uncertainties, and wonderings. I think it will be good for me to spend some more time surfacing those in the best place i can think of: before God in the prayer room.
mkay, all for now. i'm going to start reading and try and make this stomach ache subside by quieting my brain.